So, what would be life without an existential crisis? Usually I’d attempt to elaborate on a response, but to be honest, I have never know, seen, heard or sniffed anything about such a life. Thus, here is a little about my own metaphorical wanderings to find the meaning of reality.
Drama over. Really, I promise. Well, no, not really. No promises. I have to get my fun somehow, so I might resort to overly dramatic segments from time to time. Anyhow, I suppose everyone experiences certain questions at some point. I’d glance at the meaning of life or whether or not we really exist, but let’s be honest, those questions have been beaten bloody over the centuries and still won’t yield an answer. So I won’t bother with them, for now. You probably understand me enough to know each of those deserve their very own dedicated post.
But, on my more personal and utterly arbitrary dilemma, I can’t seem to find a game capable of satiating my desire to play.
Oh, don’t look at the screen like that. Like I said, I have to get my fun somehow; better video games than drugs or illegal street racing. Unless it’s a game about drug dealers and illegal street racing, coughGTAcough, ahem. Anyway, I’ve found that one of the more enjoyable ways to pass time and be entertained, to me, has always been through play.
Don’t get me wrong, I love reading and wouldn’t deny a book it’s turn to be read, but there is something about the multimedia experience of gaming that has it’s own particular charm; combine the allure of a good narrative, a pleasing aesthetic, suitable sounds and music to match the tone of each scene and add in a few layers of depth for interaction. Suddenly you have an experience that could very much be one of the most memorable moments experienced.
But with all good things, there are also several bad things, not every game is a good game. Which goes without saying, but I value stating the obvious, just to be sure. And in a way, after my initial burst of playing through several different games of the widest variety of genres, give or take some seven years or so, I’ve started to nurse a rather peculiar itch; I’d like to find something less ephemeral than whatever happens to be the latest big hit.
In the surface, this automatically points to classical board games such as chess; timeless puzzles such as solitaire or tetris; or competitive games. But what makes my itch so intrinsically exquisite is that none of those options seem to satiate me.
As a very basic line, I have a profound distaste for competitive play. Not that sports, in general, are a bad thing. But I find that that direction is far too narrow for my tastes, it’s an exercise in polishing very specific skills that often fail to be useful at anything else. Poke me for an sports post, if you’d like to hear a more in-depth explanation of this view of mine, but bear in mind, I’m not bashing sports as a bad thing, just saying that it’s not a venue that attracts my interests. In, fact, I may have already given a satisfactory explanation on my sports view on a previous post about chess, but I can write more on the subject if you so desire.
That, by itself, substantially restricts the range of games that actually appeal to me. You would expect that to make the search easier, but alas, this particular Pixel is not even remotely lucky.
Recently, I’ve began leaning on a different direction; the particulars of that is something I’ll leave for another time. But for now it seems to me that my search is close to impossible to fulfill. Time for more thinking, I suppose.
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